to everyone who is open for ‘it’

To everyone, who is open for ‘it’

To those who keep on loving life.

To those who know that nothing can exist without a known or unknown form of energy.

To tose who knows that emptiness cannot exist, but realizes that one can create a kind of emptiness in one’ s life.

To all who did not follow the principle of ‘divide and rule’.

To all who in their existence, discover all kinds of evolutions towards more consciousness and sense.

To all those who are aware that progress must be used to make a better world.

To those who, starting from realities like the sciences and deeply analyzed feelings, discover the art of observing in another way.

To those who try to communicate this inner communication in many ways in daily life, in art and so on.

To those who in doing so, remain stable by making a difference between the real and the false.

To those who understand that also the simple minded can stimulate ones growing consciousness, not only the intellectuals can help someone understanding all the keys of the complexity of life.

To those who see the relation between the positive and negative things that happen in individual lives and in collective history, on a personal and collective base.

To those who understand that good things are trying to reach us by means of reading, pronouncing and interpretation words.

Too those who know that thinking about their own lives is interconnected with the lives of others and with thinking about the world and the universe as a totality.

To those who, maybe with interruption, but constantly work to better the quality of communication around themselves.

To those who understand that all the precedent will end in a new way of communicating with oneself and others.

To those who realize that controlling the dynamic behind the personal lives of their own, interacting with those of others, (from the smallest units to global society), is in a way a new form of art. (but loving life remains the greatest art).

It is an art that starts from a healthy inner communication with oneself.

To those who know that the individual and collective consciousness lead to higher degrees of consciousness and open the way to a better world (quantitative but surely qualitative).

To those who know that unsocial attitudes and behavior are a real political treat.

To those who are aware that everything and everybody evolves towards the best circumstances can offer it, him or her.

To those who know that clinging to the negative parts of all kinds of heritages can influence situations badly on a small or larger scale.

To those who understand all this, but cannot express it yet in this way, sometimes they are closer to it than the ones who do.

To those who are involved with these kind of things and matter and feelings, because they cannot do otherwise any more. To those who understand the true meaning of the word ‘freedom’.

To those who from within themselves and together with others, want to really reach matureness as a human being.

To those who in a positive and even in a negative way, have contributed to our ‘understanding’ and there for ‘consciousness’, from the early cave men to all the ones who contributed to our cultural heritage.

To all those who know that money alone does not buy happiness and understands it’s role still is one of teaching people a lot about themselves.

To put it briefly : loving life is the greatest art, inner communication and communication in a new way, the greatest art.



May 6, 2011. philosophy, religion, spirituality. Leave a comment.

so there really was life after dead

particular energy

A few sentences are in Book Antiqua style and date from 9/1O/2010 or have been later introduced or reworked. Original text I wrote in 2003

So there really was life after death. Herwerken want met vertaalmachine
About ten, twelve years ago I wrote the following senses: ” Peace will come in the heart of the ones with honest souls. Prevent the world from destruction and lead people to better lives. Never forget that the world is indivisible. There is but one life and one world, takes your responsibility and live as intense as possible. Be wise and light to be a guide. Go to the people and speak of joys to be. Your place is where you will feel free. Explain them the difference between the material world and the spiritual matter. Truth is simple. Truth hides in the past, lives in the present and needs the future. Why does one find so little joy between many people? People do not wonder enough about who they are and what means and what the lives they lead mean. They should be more philosopher than materialist, they should ask themselves why they live in a world of wealth and poverty, war and peace, stress on the work and unemployment. But there are other reasons for the lack of joy… reasons about which one cannot yet write and reasons about which nobody can write.”
By means of this short story, I’ll try to show what ‘dead’ in fact means.
there was life after dead !

introduction : through the past in a few lines
Nothing is more ‘real’ then living life itself, how real art as well can be.
We all, we are characters in a real novel that has been going on since ages.
Persons create persons and then vanish again.
Since thousands of years we try to put our experiences in to signs.
The more you understand about it, the harder sometimes to put it down in words.
The good man does, continues to live after him
The evil also. Positive and negative interact in completion.
The sense of it all, in every way a powerful, meaningful something.
One can only observe and react, starting from an indifferent equilibrium
Science can give us a logical explanation about life.
A trained observer experiences more ten the logic of things
Objective sciences mostly only have an eye for their field.
Philosophy, Psychology and history must unify the other logic.

Einstein put together the achieved and unveiled a new point of view.
Time, space and matter became more relative then we thought.
Religion tried to make us believe in Gods and God.
Knowledge and truth still were far away from proving a new kind of unity.
Marxists tried to understand the laws of history.
Conservative establishment was against the sense of life socialism discovered.
But nobody could control the subjective factor.
Freud and others tried to show the role of the unconscious.
But they did not discover the deeper meaning of life.
We all, could be more people looking for the meaning of life.
A meaning that surpasses life and dead.
But we are caught in a lot of kinds of habits and ‘pain’.
Life itself is a source of inspiration for everything I wrote about in every literary form.
I can stop writing and let it go by me till I understand the meaning of it better within a few years…or I can try to make a rapport of it every day. I taught about the structure of my day and had a look at my work and the things I studied, the documentaries I kept on video, some newspaper-articles which I kept because I thought they had a lasting value. To make this understandable for readers, I first had to bring them a number of philosophical life-attitudes. How to start this ? Those attitudes were partly the result of a critical study of the existing attitudes and partly the result of my own practical experiences midst all kinds of persons which are to be found in every one’s life.
We’ve all got them : family, lovers, friends, social and political persons,… .
With all that ‘brainstorming’ going on in my head, I was afraid of ‘boiling over’ and remaining on my chair till inspiration came, looked like dangerously reaching a unallowable border. I went outside to sit on a chair and stumbled back inn. Symbolically I closed the door. Something cracked inside me.
I closed my eyes for the last time here on earth. An unexpected goodbye, where I had thought a lot about. A few things I had imagined, became true. The experience itself was a quite different, something comparable whit what I had experienced during the burning to ashes of an old colleague of mine. There was this kind of magnetism that started in my feet and got upwards, like it seemed to be coming from the ground. When it reached my hart, I taught ‘oh’, ‘something is wrong with me’. But no, the magnetism accelerated it ‘ s speed and once in my head, it became a kind of more-dimensional triangle, pyramid kind of ‘light dimension’ which, like a starship in science-fiction vanished into space. This form of yellow kind of light, did it disappear into the spaces of micro cosmos or the ones of macro cosmos ? Or was there an indifferent equilibrium in between ?
Probably I was in the anti-matter that every matter has, in the microcosmical world …but that world is everywhere, even in the macro-world. Was I in somebody or in the spiritual world as a unity ? So I did solve a part of the mystery ‘god is everywhere’. I happened to be in the antimatter of all the elements that once composed me, radiation as well as minerals, gasses and so on.
In any case, there was life after dead.
During my life, I had three different options about dead. We surely fell back into the elements from which we were composed; energies like minerals, water, air, light and waves with each their own kind of consciousness. Since we were connected genetically with the rest of the biological world…we were not dead in that sense. As a third option I already suspected that all ones usable experiences in life, which had started with the genetic three …before one’ s life; after dead could be used as an energy working in two directions. That energy, like the electrons it was made of, is not destroyable; it can only change in form…and that is what happens to us before and during and after our life.
I experienced my ‘dead’ as being reborn in another dimension, in the awareness that ‘I’ and ‘we’ had already lived for ever…far before the existing of the first atom and the first cell…as a kind of physical energy with a ‘soul’, a bit if like the center of something ‘good’, like an artist trying always to express himself, wanting to become atom and cell and so on; while the entire process creates structure and cooperation in the different elements. And even if the total of matter should disappear, it would emerge in another point. That other point, that is the same, is the point with in the cycle of the 8-form. Like in DNA and the hart as center of the blood circulation. Like a star as the center of a part of macro matter and an atom as the center of micro matter a bit as well.
The feeling I had, was like watching the light that from the evening colors passes into the dark of the night and in a number of light gradations is being born again in the morning.
Just as like when you are living, when you do not know if there is life after dead, when you are dead , you do not know if you still have a body or not. This is strange, very strange…from one ‘mystery’ you in fact dive into another.
My individuality began a long journey alongside our collective and individual past to the point of my dead, where individuality again seemed to vanish in collectivity and yet it had a separated existence at the same time. It all happened rather fast, but on earth I would have needed many pages to describe. The voyage I was on, went from atom to cell and the building up of our existing society, it was like turning the pages of an educational book, but in a more clever than a digital way even. The more clear the message and contents from the journey were, the more effort the voyager had spent in his life, to understand the meaning of life.
The spiritual world was like a kind of internet-community, composed of the different kinds of tempers of everyone who had existed so far. Every life was a kind of ‘home-page’ in fact…with branches to all the ones in the human story they had known. ‘Had known’ or ‘knew’…it was not yet clear to me. It seemed that the better it became to live on earth, the more beautiful the symbolism between the ones that already past away (the past away’ s) and the still living in a classical way became. Was this what moved the interaction between the two worlds ?
As soon as I reached a certain point NOW on my and our earthly past, the new laws of my new form of existence, became clear to me. They not only made my speechless, I also could not ‘speak’ any more, when I got aware in which manner I could only express myself at the biologically living persons.
There also was the awareness that they could use my energy and I theirs…but only in a symbolical, intuition manner through thinking and dreams and images and things that happened…a kind of ‘inspiration’ in fact.
I did not only have a ‘voice’ any more, I also did not ‘see’ any more…because I myself had become a part of light and air and all the other elements I was composed of…without knowing exactly what…like one cannot see one’s own inside organs and like one can only see oneself in a mirror. We only can feel the intensity of who we are. Still I was able to think by means of images and thoughts, like one can see images in his head in a biological body…al dough some scientists say that they aren’t there. Stronger than before I felt the good person I had always been.
Another thing that became clear to me, was that I did not knew if I could still ‘hear’, because like something that was said…I could remember hearing voices and sometimes I wondered if a voice wasn’t a taught.
With ‘being dead’ the ‘emphasis’ was being put more on ‘feeling’, even ‘thought’ was a feeling. Trying to feel with who in life you really were connected with. Not literally ‘feeling’, but ‘touching each other in the spirit’, not in the ‘mind’(like in the soul) on earth…but it still seemed much like the positive feelings parents and friends can have for each other. It became clear to me, that during one’s life on earth all the consciousness and deeds one collects; all that positive and negative energy that interacts…at the same time on the ‘other side’ is being put together like a puzzle. The final ‘result’ gives you the amount of ‘inner knowledge’ you have reached when you die. Once when we no longer are biological, we can feel the intensity of who we are.

Ones earthly ‘soul’, based on positive and negative emotions, who commands ones earthly life; sometimes let’s go some pieces of ‘spiritual information’, we the ‘past away’ s’ , need…in order to be able to pass on our information. One’s final dead is the unified picture of your life, offered to you. From the moment you understand this at the other side, you get a kind of spiritual orgasm that enables you to realize that you are not alone at the other side…and that one can communicate as well with other spirits over there.
Just like on earth one needs other people to be oneself. On earth sometimes some people are aware of these things, but those moments seem to disappear because the amount of events that come and go. On the ‘other side’ there also are times when one can isolate oneself…that often are moments when one is the most in unity with everyone and everything. Not always nevertheless.
Just like a child that is born all of the sudden is surrounded met beings with which it has another kind of intensity in contact…no longer the strange noises from in the belly. People who believe in classical reincarnation would say that this is the bridge from one live to another, even if they believe that the soul only enters the body with birth.(Sunday 24 april2011 Eastern, most hot day in 60 years in Belgium).
On very clear moments in one’s life one can realize these things, but due to the fact of the never stopping flow of events, one is not always conscious of this process.
Like on earth, life after dead is not always ‘romantic’…because the process of consciousness that started with the voyage from atom to cell, organism, animal, men and society…that process continues after dead. It depends on your merits whether you are armed to be able to continue that awareness-project. Your ‘hierarchy’ as well depends from your merits…and this has not much to do with the diplomas you got, neither with the kind of work you did? You ,’biological living ones’ should be amazed about some people you taught you knew and who they are over here. But later more about that. If I get permission to say something about it, I will, but I have a feeling I won’t.
To be able to explain all this I have to get back to my puzzle of life

There was a reason why I had lived and still was living
I ‘watched’ the places in the world that I had abandoned and ‘saw’ de growth of the harvests on the fields near the roads I had lived and traveled. I saw the cars on the roads and the smoke coming from factories and some houses. I saw the animals, but he people, I did not see. Maybe I was in the people and that is why I could not see them anymore.
Very strange in the beginning. My friends only lived in my memories…I only could see them in my memories, which was a way of better understanding how they felt…even on a present stage basis.
But how they felt did not preoccupy me at the moment, I needed my energy to concentrate on a text of a novel or essay I wanted to complete. I had called the introduction ‘my inspiration maps’.
I saw the text lying on my desk, but how could I finish this book ?
Maybe there somewhere was a writer with still a biological life to lead, who read one of my former works and did not have any inspiration of from himself at the moment. During my life I had called into existence enough energy to allow me at this moment to be ‘connected’ with a living soul mate.
I would finish my book, through him. Sometimes he would be aware of my special kind of presence without knowing. Sometimes we were aware of each other, when he walked amongst the threes in the wood and taught about something he read about me. I always wanted to plant a wood myself and there was this writer who lived in a wood near water and entered his chalet, took the newspaper and cut out my photo and an article on my life. It gave me new energy to continue writing. A lot of writers were still continuing something amongst ‘us’ and ‘them’. Sometimes there seemed to be no difference amongst ‘them’ and ‘we’. Al dough we did not see ‘them’ busy with something…we felt what was going on in their world. Like the living sometimes were busy with the question what would happen after their dead, we, ‘past away’ s’ were busy wondering what our next life in the ‘after afterworld’ would be like. Our form of energy in the afterworld wasn’t eternal either and one day would change it ’s form as well. In a way we had we had bettered ourselves because we mainly communicated with spirits from the afterworld that used to have the same interests as we. It was very special how each of us tried to do this in his own way.
Those who as farmers had been concerned about agriculture, received energy from those who had liked doing this on earth. Communication between both sides worked as a system of connected fluids in different spaces. The negativism of a minority of farmers or landowners on earth often prevented the flowing of communication between farmers that had died and those still active on earth. Sometimes the representatives of the farmers in the afterworld came looking for advice with spirits that often had to deal with the same problems when they worked as farmers for example.
Then there was a communication amongst them and only the fact of this ‘exchange’ itself made it possible to generate some actions below that would improve something or that made farmers below aware. But sometimes it looked like a never ending struggle in each domain.
In the afterworld, the ones who caused those problems in the past suffered until some improvement was made.
So my friend the medium-writer had to tell people below to watch out and think about the suffering of their relatives in an heaven, that wasn’t always ‘heaven’ to them. Their relatives or people responsible for some misery of others should have to do something about it…before they end in the same position. If they act know, the ones who are at the origin of blockades between this world and the next shall free themselves here and in the next stage of life. In the afterworld the painfull part of the existence of ordinary working people is more quickly healed then of those who were responsible for big decisions. People who had mainly good intentions adapt very easily in what the afterworld has to offer. People who produced many good waves and did many good things to help others …still can feel how they are doing…without suffering and without being able to help them, when they aren’t conscious enough to ask it.
Those wise ‘afterworld’-men only can give some inspiration and advice, but the ‘receiving parts’ of the biologically living people have to be functioning…and they don’t when they are not in an emotional balance. Someone with too much negative emotions is a real problem for both the one below who is partly responsible for those emotions as for the one on earth. In many cases, help must come from other identities. Both groups have an important tool to help one another : the free will to act. This free will is a total product of all the situations where it was used and can for reasons, difficult to track down here on earth, be temporally blocked for both groups or their individual components. There for it is sometimes better not to act or stay in a position of indifferent balance.

The afterworld in which we function, only can make us philosophe about our ‘after afterworld’ because from time to time some ‘spirits’ disappear here, like on earth, some ‘souls’ disappear.
We use the term ‘after spirits’ here. We are trying to find the way to get in contact with them. Like on earth we still are in a kind of phase in between. Such a phase, like on earth you can divide in a number of stages of progressing or backsliding consciousness. Once more, what was already clear to me on earth became more clear to me in the afterworld. Everything is one and connected, but there are a number of phases. Like from silence seven sounds are born, with whom one can compose music, like from white all other colors are born. Like thought, feeling and inspiration can produce at least seven expressions of literature…from shouting to poetry…..Like one can touch someone’s skin in several ways as well. It was rather strange that some of us missed those last feelings and others didn’t. Why ? Again a question for us to solve. Did ‘time’ only continued to exist for those not feeling well because of existing ? Could we provoke the urge for a new genetic consciousness among the classical living ones ? “Did the classical ling beings then feel the urge to make new life, new individuals to come and continue the unfinished stories of the living and in a way of the dead ? Was this possible ? (24/4/2011)”
The search for a ‘why’ and ‘how’ was a never ending story it seemed.
Looking out for a new stage of existing in our development was a new kind of enigma, riddle to us.
I , unlike others, did not believe that we were going to reincarnate in another earthly body after disappearing out of the afterlife. I believed more in spiritual growth and trying to show the ones on earth, our genetic three, we partly left behind; that they had to help themselves to be get conscious happy and make a better world…in order to have a better life as well in the afterworld and help us at the same time by doing so. Ou

April 26, 2011. philosophy, religion, spirituality, Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

intro to closer to the soul

Closer to the soul
Hello, allow me to present myself. My name is ‘combination’. Of course I also have a name which my family passed me on. In Dutch it means ‘he that watches from a mountain’. If I was to give a definition of my name, I would give you a philosophical meditation I once wrote :
everybody has a name
everybody has a name My name is combination. I combine. The innocent aspirations of youth, with the illusions and the wrong mirrors of reality, of growing up, with the hope for new illusions to believe in, with the fate that we evolve to the real lessons, to the real feeling, to the best act in real art’s NOW—— I combine. The pains and joys of the past, with understanding the present ones with the aspirations of tomorrow with all the energy deep inside me—– I combine. The political theories with the working conditions, with the real emotional world of daily people, with wanting to change things—– I combine. The news on war, poverty, famine, with all kind of wealth diseases , with all kinds of unhappiness that reigns, with breaking the solitude of the individual—— I combine. The living and the dead, with the longing for fulfillment with wanting to recognize , who in fact I am, with observing all kinds of forgotten energies—— I combine. Friendship and Love and Lust with satisfaction and negative emotions, with solutions and new problems, with rest and unease—- I combine, I combine, I combine. I cannot do otherwise, al dough I try, I always have to combine. Because combination shall be my name until it’s no longer necessary… And I become part of another world ? combination Is there an energy with a comparable consciousness as ours, which did not need to follow the same evolutionary road ?

Not just by coincidence, Life that has existed for ever, used it’ s current big bang cycle to try to make us aware of It’ s meaning. When you study science you will discover the wonder that preceded us. Then you might have the following feeling that will occur in your mind :
“Peace will come in the hart of the ones with the honnest souls. Preserve the earth from destruction and lead the people towards better lives. The world is one, never ever forget. There is only one life and one world, take your responsibility and live as conscious as possible.
Be light to be a guide. Go to the streets, speak of joys to be. Your place is everywhere you will feel free. Observe, restrain your forces.
Show them what the material world and the spiritual matter is all about. The truth is very simple. It’s hidden in the past, lives in the present and needs the future. Why is there so little joy to be found amongst many ? People do not wonder enough about who they really are and what the life they lead really means. They should be more philosophers, they should ask themselves why they live in a society of wealth and poverty, peace and war, stress at work and unemployment. But there are other reasons for the lack of joy also…
reasons one cannot write about yet…and reasons one cannot write about.”
Looking back at those words at the end of july 2006, I can indeed say that peace can only come in my heart the day more people start thinking and acting to make this world a good place to live for everyone. Why should we let the direction of this world in the hands of a tiny minority exploiting it for the sake of the same minority ? Why should we be forced to sit down and watch this world go to pieces more and more, day by day ? The ones we are used to see on our screens, shaking their ‘important’ hands, having a drink behind their long negociating tables, planning wars and presenting themselves as the saviours of the human race, in fact are the same ones that feed barbarity.
They prevent people from having a meaningfull job and hold them into a kind a slavery. They controle States and companies and therefore have a great power over our lives. They in fact dictate what news is to be brought and they keep on writing their own bloodly version of history
And what about we ? We accept the hundred ways in which they controle our lives. When will it get through to a majority of us…the condition this world is in, is the result of our unconsciousness and our unwillingness to do something about it…we gave and give them a free hand. Will we further allow them to lie to us about what real freedom and human values are all about ? We won’t…and ‘we’ begins with us.
Which are the reasons why we often have a lack of joy and personal and social commitment ? If we want to know where our negative emotions come from and who in fact we are…we should not primaraly go to our different kind of existing churches for an explanation.
If you like to go to churches and read some ancient texts, then do it in a way that you keep in mind that the people who wrote those texts were a product of their time as much as we are now. Philosophical answers and faith can as well be found in the things that science reaches us then in several holy texts. It is to be said that some of them have become outdated, especially those who consider humour a dangerous thing and who teach that one kind of believers is ‘better’ then another one. But let us consider ourselves as human beiings in stead of uncritical followers of some kind of believe. By connecting philosophy with science I’ll try to prove that believing in what science teaches us does not necessarily go against religious aspirations as eternal life.
What we really are and where we came from.
In fact in our search for the meaning of life, we can start by realising that something can only exist if it has a meaning, a sense.
Why is that ? Because something without a form cannot exist…every kind of matter that tends to take a space which tends to approach or equalise to ‘zero’ …it explodes. It’s just like ‘the’ or one of the ‘big-bangs’ of the history of universe. To much pressure on a certain point, makes everything explode, in both the micro and makro world…who in fact are one : stars, atoms, cels, …even our relations…to much pressure makes new developments possible…if these are improving the position of the old situation…we call something ‘meaningfull’.
The laws of nature developed very ideal conditions for life as we know it, to get started. After the big-bang there wasn’t really anything one could ‘touch’. Matter existed as different kind of radiation. In Dutch the word for ‘radiation’ is ‘straling’…when someone is happy we say he looks ‘stralend’. It were the laws and try-outs of radiation that produced the first atom and later on the planets and the climate conditions that created the first cell and so on. It really is an amazing story which one can look up for oneself. So next time you walk through a forest be also aware of the speed with which the earth unther your feet still travels in the direction it was pushed some 15 billion years ago.
All that beautifull past, all the wisdom the first cells atained when they learned how to divide to stay alive…all of that stuff is still living the very moment you read these words. When we die a part of us becomes minnerals and so on, but the radiation leaves our bodies…the study of the way our mind observes and some personal experiences I prefer not calling ‘mystical’, as well as some scientifical studies lead me to strongly believe that our lives not only have a social meaning…but on a personal level we interact to create the conditions that bring us closer to our soul. Our soul, not only the pieces of genetical heritage goiing back to the first cells…but the essence that is really ours…maybe it’s our continiously enriched radiation from so long ago.
In fact, isn’t everything that exists not only one soul ? We see ‘God’ as the ideal abstract person which controls everything, but in fact the purpose of our evolution is to make this world work so that we materially can live in peace to spend more and more time in comparing the ways in which we give meaning to our lives. To someone who believes in reincarnation we would say that the same person can appear unther aproximatly the same conditions after a billion big-bangs for exemple…or maybe we could answer that we were already there as a piece of all the ones we descended from. We are a great mix, but the navigator inside us should always follow the line of his hart, not the line of how much money he can make or how he can take a revench on someone. We should all try to overcome all our philosophical, religious and personal differences and negative emotions based on what ever happened in the past and forget our bloody history and start again by focussing on the present and wishing good things for the future to come.

Matter and spirit have always been one. Matter was energy and energy always means the possibility of creation and evolution.
Even if one tries to destroy energy you always get a change of form, no vanishing into nothing.
‘The meaning of life’ is something that has always been there. The journey from nature to human culture was a very long one.
Matter contains energy that has prepared the coming into beiing of spiritual energy…or maybe matter originally always was the total collected energy between two big bangs. The first meaning of life is therefore the coming into existence, the maintenance and growth of spiritual matter. All chemical and fysical powers like temperatures, distances, speeds, pression, time as well;
all movements from atoms and cells …everything serves the growth of spiritual energy.
It has always been like this, because electrons cannot be destroyed. Our mind is not only composed by the electrons of all our braincells, but of the atoms of all our other cells. In fact we can say that all our cells have a specific consciuousness.
The question ‘who are we’, can best be answered by ‘where do we come from’. That question no longer is a monopoly of religion. ‘Religion’ comes from the French word ‘relier’, combining. Combining science and philosophy and politics and psychology, helps us to understand the real meaning of our lives. ‘Faith’ can be based upon a beautiful smile or brilliantly used words or notes as well…the answer to the question ‘the meaning of life’, never only is intellectual.

In fact the ones who wonder to much about whether there is or isn’t a God, are occupied with the following question : ‘Is there an energy that has less or as much or more consciousness as we…and did that energy not have to travel all the way from radiation to atom to cell and human being to achieve this consciousness ‘ ? What kind of energy is present in and before a big-bang : t the enriched energie of the previous cycle of big-bang and colapse in one point again …or is it every time the same kind of energy starting all the way from the same energylevel ?
So in fact what some call ‘god’ could be the expression of the longing for more energy, more enriched consciousness…in the present, future and past, the past, beiing the previous energylevel situation. In fact when we die we maybe still have our radiation as a form of beiing aware.
It thus seems that the creation of endless energy always restarts with not wanting to be nothing or nobody…both non existing things. ‘Radiation’ thus is the combination of all kinds of energy that existed in a cyclus between two big-bangs and which wants to start again and start something new.
Is it Einstein and others and their books and heritage or the radiation they are amongst us that makes me conclude all this after years ? Who knows and how to make it concrete…by literature maybe…if not in daily life, there are a lot of strange things happening ?
Rather then beiing divided into traditional believers and their divisions on the one hand and those who believe in another way and it’s divisions… aren’t there enough other questions we should resolve ?
Why isn’t there a system for managing society that makes ignorance, war, poverty and famine impossible ?
How come the relationship between ‘lovers’ or other relationships can be so complicated ?
So, in one question : ‘why does man have so much difficulties with those strange ‘things’ like god, dead, history, money or values like friendship, family, pleasure,lust, … ‘ ?
I think for one part it is because we haven’t learned to observe objectively enough…aren’t our observations continously beiing deformed by our own or the negative emotions andd ignorance of others ?
On the other hand it seems like maybe even before the ejaculation and the landing of the egg, there’s a game between coalitions of genes goiing on…like as if our past seeks to continue it’s story in the future already…
not wanting to become ‘meaningless’ but learning the lessons the previous generations we ones were still had and have to learn. So in fact life has always been and is an endless school, teaching in many ways.

In this part of my writing I will not talk a lot of Life in it’ s social and political appearance. Those economic conditions do influence our relations and awareness a lot and history tries to invent a more neutral system to manage society on a world scale starting from the place you work or live. Later on I will give you a link where an alternative for the current systems is presented.
It is important to keep in mind that in order to abolish poverty and war and so many forms of needless exploitation it is necessary to become aware of one’ s personal evolution. When to many people keep on being prisoners of their own negative emotions or those of others, this will put too much weight on the historical process of renewal. That is the way the total hierarchy of all kinds of evolutions work.
To show you why Life’ s good energy comes along more often on times when you understand more about your personal or total environment of relations, I will tell you the stories of a number of people whose lines crossed directly and indirectly those of the preacher whose biography I am trying to write.
continuation :

November 5, 2010. novels. Leave a comment.

to be or not to be, but what is to be ?

I am I said

The begining of time never existed.

We give and take and leave our traces.

Circumstances were always different, ‘evolution’ you know,… ‘beiing’ was, is, will always be one.

Even when on a sudden day it looks like ‘beiing’ isn’t there any more.

Maybe it left us, hopefully, as enriched radiation. Back to the roorts of biological life.

There are a number of ways to express oneself if one wants to communicate about the essence of life.

I could pass you films about the beauty of the universe.

I could show you pictures, send you some music, encourage you to use your artistic skills, your talents, study… .

I could translate some texts I wrote so far, guide you to my main blogs and their links and those of others.

I could tell you stories the roles in life we play for others.

I could invite you to come and talk about it or to react by email.

I could post videos with spoken explanation, but the effort to understand starts in your own environment.

It would lead us to far, in time, as one grows older and one learns to deal with emotions, one gets wiser… .

In our own lifetime we evoluate, based on our levels of consciousness and knowledge and people we meet.

Everyone has their own experiences in life to interpretate and deal with, learn and share with others.

Life is not just something that happened by coincidence.

It is something completely spiritual that translated itself in to matter starting from the radiation after a bigbang.

Why was there a bigbang, probably in a cycle of bigbangs ?

Because something that tends to become smaller or equal than zero tends to explote.

Symbolically (spiritually) this means that something without a form cannot exist.

When something tends to become meaningless, it disapears in to another form of energy.

Because of the growing pressure to evoluate, it’s lifetime is limited.

Whether a social or an individual relationship, that basic law of ‘making sense’ controls all evolution.

The road from radiation to atom, molecule,cell, organisms…to us or from tribe to modern society…breads evolution.

In each episode their are laws of attraction that play their part in the game of growing consciousness.

Everything has a core in the micro and macro world. Galaxies, milky ways, stars, atoms…our own inner.

An atom has a proton (+) and neutron position (+-), the surrounding electrons are –

Symbolically this means that an atom or even a person can react or not, atoms with energy, we in words,mimicry…

or one can take an observatorish attitude…opting for a kind of indifferent balance.

Whatever we do always depends of what came in to existence before us.

Philosophically the question is : in how far are we free to choose and in how far are we determined by what and who ?

It might be a question over the border of those who lived and those who live.

One can interpretate something logically-scientifically or (and) symbolically.

If one considers science in this way, it not only tells us a scientific story, but one with a purpose.

Every life once lived, was preparated to become in to beiing aware of more and more.

We have a choice, taking an interest in what philosohers, writers…scientists said and say or not.

We can decide to play computergames all day and taking no intrest in what is goiing on in society.

We can chose to live without taking a real intrest in the souls of the ones we love or happen to know.

What we can not escape from is the untruth we believe in, because we were told so or because we made our selves believe in.

August 10, 2010. philosophy, Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

oh heavenly whisper

Oh heavenly whisper
Hadn’t seen here in years. But in the night she came in a dream. We met, set on the kitchen table of long ago, talked long and deep while in fact, I was in Africa for two weeks, and she in Europe. We talked about what we had learned and what we had left. To blame was the situation in general. We were born out of a force of circumstances and while growing up we were confronted with the unsolved emotions of others and our own.
What is faith in a love-relationship ? Is it an agreement to stay faithful to one person in body and soul or is it a commitment to deal with the heritage of what went wrong in the relationships before our birth, which in the end, had to lead to us ? It’s the second part of the answer that is the most difficult part to analyze, because roads tend to split because one person does not have all the answers.
Men do not understand why women often seem to run in to tears more ten they do. When a woman wants to break up a relationship, she will try to put the ‘blame’ on the male…or the other way around. If there where break ups before in the same or other relationships, one can use the past experiences to get out of the situation, or at least to stay calm. One can learn a lot about life when one has compassion with people. Sometimes it can put yourself in a lot of trouble, but by going through the pain of others, one discovers where pain descends from. By doing so, you give yourself a piece of advice in the end, ‘you don’t want to know where pain comes from’. Because if you do want to know, it surely will come your way.
Attraction. Physical attraction. Probably our genes, smart enough to know what a biological good match is. Not only physical attraction. The partner can offer social security as well. Emotional attraction. Partners that lean on each other, one more than the other, to obtain a good feeling that leads to falling in love. After the honeymoon weeks, things start to slow down in intensity and many influences make their way in to the evolution of the relation. Since one out of two relationships fall apart, it is obvious that with a lot of people an often hidden battle starts : ‘should we or I or shouldn’t we split’ ? Often one of the reasons for this kind of conduct is that one is afraid that the other one could find another partner and out of jealousy people sometimes even make babies which task in life it will be to find out where they come from. Maybe that newborn life is blessed with far less jealousy, in order to confront his parents. Maybe the next baby will grow up to be once again more jealous…in order to learn something from each other in this game called life.
People interfere in the lives of others, continuing their kind of never ending stories. They can start their story by not only telling stories of people they knew, but also the stories of their own. Their pains, their joys, their remedies. The story teller often explains the story from his or her angle, making it to nice or to black so while telling their story, they misjudge people. When the ones who listen, aren’t experienced enough or when they do not want to take a moral point of view or do not want to judge because they do not know the complete backgrounds of persons involved, a lot of later confusions are born.
So when there is interconnection that works, people touch each other for the first time in a special way…by words, an arm, a kiss maybe a few months later. The stories that begin in a slow platonic way, often can reach the same or more passion in every way. No problem so far, when people involved are single. One can be married or in another kind of relationship. The most wise thing to do is to continue in a platonic way. If one can let go of his or her feelings the other one, instead of taking a distance too, can become hopelessly unhappy, not only from the tensions at home, but because of an inner emptiness that isn’t answered any more by the challenge and excitement a new relationship can bring into life. Often one cannot find the same mutual interests in one person : intellectual things, mystical things, poetry, politics, literature and so on. But you do not need to start an physical relationship for that. But when that kind of very good feeling is there, bodies can show the desire to compare the depths of life in the physical dimensions as well. One can become very wet from each other(s) for years and years to come, or things can fall into the after honeymoon experience soon. Most of the people hide their love story for each other when there is a triangle involved. Some speak about it and even before things start getting ‘serious’. Splits often then occur, sometimes the third leg has to go, sometimes the third person revives the older relationship…surely in a physical way at least, but that, like the honeymoon experience is not of long duration when there is more interconnection with the soul of others involved. One can hesitate a long time to inform the existing relationship. It depends of one’s experiences, the ‘guilty’-thing about it. To make a triangle official is in fact recognizing that some existing ties came under pressure. Often it was before something new started. Sometimes it is because another love story started. In other cases both. In all cases life shows a bit about the truth about the prehistory of your love life that can go back your parents and so on…but the responsibility for it, in the end, is your own. That’s what feeling good is largely about.
Because of the complexity of things, when emotionally difficult matters are concerned; some people need other people to continue or complete their former relationships. The ones who are left on their own and can concentrate on other things besides those sometimes silly emotionally negative things…are rare. Fewer are the ones that have non hostile taught about their ‘rivals in love’. Often depressions follow, drinking, chasing others to get ‘even’, the same behavior as some women or men who had a bad relationship with their mother, father…they tend to take revenge on the later husband. Every negative emotion, in the end, always comes down to ‘fear’. Fear of not enough love, not enough money,…and so on. Love, if you have no fears, is a thing there is always plenty of. And because a lot of us have to many fears we invent a lot of things we can hide ourselves behind. Surely, when one is the second man or second wife in the play, and children are involved; one must be strong enough to take a distance. If it doesn’t work, in the end you have to make up your mind if you want a classical relation or not. ‘There surely must be some nice, uncomplicated candidates’ over there, one starts to think’ in that stage. When the triangle is to disappear because of a fourth person entering the stage, a new battle begins. The good old biological competition, or is it not all kinds of unfinished business of the past that lingers on in the present…pumps the adrenaline again. Deals are made and oats are sworn to prevent the new couple from being together. Interfering with the life of others has lots of inspiration…because too much bellybutton (ego) often can make a fool of both sexes. Even expressing emotions, feelings, talking doesn’t help anymore then…and often the bed has to make up…leaving others with their illusions and sometimes the new old couple as well. It isn’t an easy task, avoiding the meaningless. If you are close to it, the pressure will go up and one tends to explode if you have no inner calm any more. Sometimes it’s a good thing for your evolution when people start evolving more through other people. If one gets in to trouble of all kind, don’t give up to easily…or the future can hold a lot of more trouble ahead on other locations with other persons. It might. It might not. The silly old question, she(he)loves me…not. A crazy, but meaning full thing that fight against instability, the ups and downs.

May 20, 2010. spirituality. Leave a comment.

Fellow World Occupier :

Fellow World occupier
Jobless? Time to wonder why ? Too much work,
always producing more in less time ? Forced
into a cruel competition with co-workers, other
farmers or businessmen ? You ask yourself why
all that war and poverty ? You wonder why a
president or head of state can put the war
machine in action against the will of the
congress, parliament or the population ?
You wonder why a party leader against the
majority of his party members can go to war ?

Maybe you think ‘living and working in such
a world, that cannot be the meaning of life ?
Maybe you cannot see the sense of the work you
are doing…and you cannot find another job
easily ? You cannot find a political party or
trade union that offers you a larger picture
of the global situation or solutions …or the
ones who real have a valuable opposition
seem to be acting apart from each other ?

You think that the official education system
doesn’t focus enough on all those problems
and offers no accurate explanation about
politics and daily life ? Your social and
personal relations do not benefit from all
these circumstances. You are fed up seeing
certain TV programs, reading some kind of
newspapers or you want to stop with certain
habits that make your life more negative ?
You want to do something about this,
starting with yourself.

You realize that a human being is not a robot
designed to work and you want to come up
for yourself and others; because of the fact
that the same difficulties arise in other
families, with other people in other countries
and working units…the same questions seem
to touch others in a more awful way, depending
on where one lives.

You don’t need a drug any more to get away
from it all. You know that being obsessed to
much with negative emotions and with
wanting to buy too much stuff can attack
your objective judgment and criticism,
even your inner evolution as the unique
soul you are.

In short, you are conscious about a number
of things that keep you away from developing
a broader consciousness and you realize that
you need fellow-thinkers to put all that
consciousness in a growing number of people
and action. You can make a conscious choice.
You do want to get involved in making this a
better world without war and poverty and more
real happiness, less pollution of all kind .
You want a world with less stress at work and
at home, more time for reading about the rest
of the world and all kind of thing, more time
for cultural things .

We can experience life in a more complete way.
No ordinary idiot entertainment based on
sensation with too little inner content.
No more shows where there is being taught
how to eliminate others in order to see some
individual run away with the big money…
in order to teach us that such attitudes ought
to be our way of life. No false divisions based
on race, nationality, religion or economical power.
No more that terrible amount of publicity on our
TV screens. No more that economical way of life
that says ‘buy more or there will be an
economical crises’. No more war because i
t provides jobs…no should that business down
internationally, no more arms production
and arms trade. Only police should be armed.
No more media using a part of the truth
mixed with lies. No more misuse of the values
behind words as socialism, god, religion,
philosophy …in order to keep the system of
speculating with money and material values
in place.

It is not the intention of world history to keep
the evil that is being promoted in place.
Vote for a change, yes you can vote for a
political program yourself before in a second
round you can vote for the ones having
to implicate and control it. You can vote
on project lists instead of party lists.
Participate on a worldwide referendum :

Go to
philosophical resistance octo

February 7, 2010. politics. 2 comments.

the way life operates

the way life operates
In each epoch of civilisation people wrote. In the beginning they didn’t write about how after the big-bang, the invisible forms of matter we call ‘radiation’ created the first atoms, how later on planets were formed and how the first cells came into existence.
In fact ‘coming into existence’ is not the right word to express something concerning evolution…everything that exists existed already for eternity.
The main reason why life exists anyhow is because something without a form, something meaningless, cannot exists…a form of matter that tends to become equal or smaller then zero, explodes. This was the reason for the bigbang. To much pressure on anything and
anywho and new situations and creations and development will follow. One can say that we are who we were ment to be because in fact we were there already in the form of radiation earlier then the first atom that was created…which also isn’t a correct way of putting it because the first atom already was a piece of the first radiation and so on.
We came a long long way and in fact we’re much older then the latest bigbang some 15 billion years ago.
If some day maybe the last human beiing on earth or in space will die, a part of him will become once again a form of radiation…in fact for a part we are radiation…but we cannot touch it…or can you ‘touch’ your conversation when you are phoning without wire ? When you study science, you will find a lot of metaphors that will try to show you how life operates. ‘Life’…not only our life, but the total beiing of it.
To become a more conscious person, this ‘feeling one with life’ is the first step we should learn to take. Just like nature can miror itself in each drop of dawn in the morning, we, if we allow some light in our consciousness, we can feel the unity of the universe inside ourselves. Whenever we feel ‘divided’ we should try to imagine the basic principles mentioned above. Feeling one with nature isn’t so hard to do when you take a walk in a quiet place…and even those who live on ther country somethimes forget about their links with the univers. Always remember, even in a flat on the fourth floor it’s possible to feel good.The trouble is that we mostly feel seperated from our origins because of the fact that we must eat and have shelter every day, we are social beiings…our worries about things like money and other material needs are a risk to feel divided with who in fact we are.
An even greater risk that threatens our feeling well and undivided, are our negative emotions. Even if we do not have financial problems, even if we like our job…negative emotions can make us completely nuts. As long as we can feel some positive emotions there still is hope for each of us. At the same time, while following the line of positivity and while trying to understand negative emotions…we should be severe to them…they only come our way in order to teach us who we really are and why everybody must take responsability for his own life, not trying to seek a revench for the pain one suffered or started. How can we use those positive emotions to create a better relationship with ourselve, with the ones we meet every day and with the rest of the world ?
Why we allow so many people of using emotions or money wrongly to spoil a part of our lives with their lies …aren’t we around to teach them a lesson from time to time ?
Good and evil do exists, but the devil is our own creation. We musn’t allow anyone or ourself to divide us in any way.
‘God’ is our own invention too and this idea or this feeling indeed can help a lot of us…but it can also, once again, ‘divide’ ourselves in groups of different believers.
Why should someone who plays rugby look down on someone who plays football…they are both sports aren’t they ? Why should protestants want to fight catholics in Northern Ireland or why should sijiets murder sunnis or vice versa ? Division always looks around the corner…if you are a happy couple …why invite trouble ? Sometimes life uses differences and trouble to obtain some purification, the less conscious we are about this way of progressing, the later we realise what is happening to us in the meanwhile.
In Europe we do not go to war any more against each other. How was it possible that war broke out then before ? Wasn’t war always the last phase of economical competition between tribes or countries ? Always some leading economical groups in society make war with the help of their political friends…they cannot do so if the ones who chose them, take an undivided decided action against them.
No country can afford to go to war when small businessmen, farmers and workers go on strike against it. Sometimes life succeeds in creating the conditions to make such positive things possible…aldough a lot more coordination between different worldevents stays needed. In other cases things go from bad to worse with seemingly no end to it.
Just like in our own little lifes with their ups and downs and downfalls.

February 7, 2010. Tags: , , . philosophy. Leave a comment.

the 12 commandements (Dutch-English)

(de twaalf geboden)
the 12 commandements

(ontwikkel het sterkere in jezelf)
develop the stronger part in yourself

(tracht naar objektieve kennis)
search for objective knowledge

(overwin je negatieve emoties)
overcome your negative emotions

(doe jouw deel van het werk)
do your part of the work

(neem de tijd voor stilte en natuur)
take the time for silence and nature

(geld was een middel, geen doel)
money was a means of, not a purpose

(ontdek de ware betekenis van trouw)
discover the true meaning of faith and faithfulness

(leef niet alleen om te werken)
don’t life only for working for the money

(overmatige konsumptie vervuilt jezelf)
too much consumption spoils yourself

(ontdek de symboliek van de zin van het leven)
discover the symbolism of the meaning of life, the metafors

(kunst brengt je dichter bij de kern van het leven : zin van onzin scheiden)
art brings you closer to the hart of life : separating sense from nonsense

February 7, 2010. spirituality. Leave a comment.



When everything you wanted to write aout life, has been written.

When everything you wanted to speak about, has been said.

When you’ve experienced all about love and hate.

When you’ve tried everything to influence the battle for power.

Then you realise you’ve only touched the mechanisms,

even dough you added a lot of undiscovered things.

Then you feel that even only in trying, you changed things,

while the negative tensions kept on giving life to the positive.

Then, when absolute calm is restored, you hear your inner voice again.

What was and is IT (she-he?) always talking about ?

Then you start wondering, why did it made you feel heavenly,

why did in some periods, it made you confuse ?

Could it be that matter and mechanisms are one thing

and the energy that makes that energy travel …an other ?

Could it be that matter or mechanisms also can make sick

and do so because the original real strength must recover ?

Could it be that real strength is always beiing challenged

and must descend in to where the changement is due to come from ?

Oh purest voice of sensitivity

let your part of wind blow, your part of matter glow,

your part of the water rise, your part of light inspire,

so I’ll know what to write in a new way;

because the sky, aswell as other matter, is full of hidden energy

Oh dearest desteny, show me the narow pad

between rationality and the inner voices of intuition,

show me which seeds where to plant

so I and we can act more then as one

because thruth otherwise causes to much suffering.

While travelling on the narrow pad

the contact with the past and future voices of nature

came back again from beiing lost

in every period of your life , that you weren’t an honnest child any more.

When you aren’t an honnest child any more, in fact you fall a sleep.

Falling asleep is not knowing where you really are.

Sleeping also is necessary, but while you’re awake,

try to have the wisdom of an honnest child.


February 7, 2010. Tags: , . poems. 2 comments.

special kind of observations

special kinds of observations
*Yesterday I saw two chairs standing near the water. All the year they had waited for me till I would find the right time to sit on one of them. Seasons past by. It was now summer. A hot day in the afternoon.
I sat myself down and after a while I noticed the shadow of the hughest tree of the parc in the water. The slightest movement of the smalest fish can make the water move all the end through the other side of the pond. The air was filled with a little wind, enough to make the tree dance in the rimpels of the water.
The branches of the three grew bigger and then again smaller, like if some kind of fluid was passing through them. The branches seemed to become a gigantic pump through wich it’s blood was pumped.
I imagined this was like when someone gets a hartattac or something…a vain breaking while to much pressure made it explode. The dancing leaves in the water seemed to be like the smallest bio in our longs, very meryly operating in their territory. I sat so silent and forgot about the parc, concentrating on this essence of life, that once my concentration was broken I saw the shy wild parccat with a whole bunch of her young traversing the parc, tails in the air…so that was why I turned back a few hours earlier when I wanted to get me a cat with someone I know…lifes work in often predicting, unexplainable ways. When I wanted to get some food for the cats the whole lot of them flew in all directions…one little cat forgot on her trip in the outside that their is water where land ends…and fell in the water…swimming onto a nest surrounded by water. When I took the boot to catch the wild cat, a stupid idea, I discoverd that a pair of waterbirds indeed had made a nest on top of a whole lot of lost wood I had put in the water.
*If you pay attention to what is beeing said between two people or more, it is the result of what goes on in their separated minds…but in an aditional form. Even the place were one is, is the result of what went on in one or more minds. Both statements are the logic result of a number of things happening every day…slept upon through the night and getting more ready for execution the following day. to be continued

February 6, 2010. Tags: , , , . spirituality. Leave a comment.

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